It's kind of strange how I've been thinking about this for a while now and then it suddenly comes up as the Writer's Block.
I'm not sure what I want to change to be honest. I do know that I want to be more out-going, not one of the easiest accomplishments to achieve. I basically want to change everything about my life at the moment, I want to move out, get a job, actually try at something for a change instead of just drifting through with minimal effort. I want to be less lazy I want to try new things. I want to be the person I see in my inner-eye and in my dreams.
I don't even know if I even have the will power to change that much, or at all. But I'm going to try.

Ahoy,

Well I'm back again. As usual I haven't been up to anything exciting, uni, watching buffy, doing uni work and procrastinating. So the usual. As you may have noticed I've made a couple of new userpics for myself, I was getting bored with the old one. My main one, the JB one, is kind of like my new signature, I'm just trying it out for a while to see how I like it.

A while ago, I decided that I was going to learn ho to draw. Well... How to draw better than I currently do, which isn't very well at all. At first I would just sit in front of the TV and try to draw what I saw. It didn't go too well, so I started drawing random objects that were around me, also not too good. Finally I decided that I would follow some tutorials, I found some really good ones online and have been following them, I've just done my third one. But I realise that it is going to be a while before I see a difference in my drawing abilities. I'm tempted to make another LJ account with would just focus on my drawings/doodles, that way I would hopefully get some nice feedback from people and they might help me improve my skills. But I'm not sure if it will be a worthwhile venture, so for now I'll just go it alone, so to speak.

I'm re-reading The Dice Man, I've only got about 10 more chapters till I finish it. But once again it is tempting me to actually start using a dice to make my decisions, but I probably wouldn't go to such extremes as in the book. It has also made me start thinking about how I feel about my life at the moment and wanting me to change into the person I see myself being. I don't really know where to start changing, as I'm actually a really shy guy, I'm actually kind of embarrassed that I'm practicing to draw. It's not just that I want to change a lot in my life, I have been making some changes kind of recently, like I started this blog, I started reading, watching different films. But I feel that it isn't enough, I still feel really lonely at times, I haven't talked to any of my friends, like Dean or Ryan for a few weeks now.

But enough about all that, I'm going to go back to reading or drawing and then I'm going to go watch some more buffy.

P.S. Still waiting for my student loan to come through, I got an invoice from uni yesterday telling me to pay £2000 for my tuition fees. GGRRR

Ahoy thar

Well it's been a while since I last posted. I have just been up to uni work mostly, well avoiding doing any that is. I've done little bits but thats about it. I need to start focusing again. On Sunday I did some volunteering for a Oxfam music festival called Oxjam, Jane asked me to do it on the Friday. It seemed like a good idea so I said I would, which made mop join me after he had finished work. It was alright, we stayed in a pub all day listening to some pretty good bands. It was pretty boring for most of it, but it was better than sitting around the house being bored all day.

Yesterday I went to Eurogamer, it was pretty much what I expected loads of people standing around playing games. I didn't really play games any more so I wasn't really interested in the games. But there was supposed to be a careers fair the games industry there as well. But It was pitiful, most of the booths there were from universities. It really annoying as that was the main reason I wanted to go, I'm in my final year at uni and I don't think I'm going to get into making games unless I get some experience and get a better portfolio of work sorted out. For some reason I was pretty moody most of the day as well, Nick started pissing me off right at the beginning of the day. Then my mood just lasted all day, i got even more aggravated when I got home. James has his friend Martin over again so I'm not too happy about that, then Juliet started shouting again and I just snapped and told her to shut up. It was bound to happen at one time or another, I get really pissed off with all the shouting she does.

It was also my dads birthday Saturday. we all came up here and my dad cooked a lovely curry for us all. That was nice, Maggie, Charlotte, Martin, Dad and myself just sat around having a laugh as usual. For some reason none of their other half's came over, bit weird but not a massive problem. Kirsty came up at about 9:30 when she finished work.

Apart from all that I haven't done much, sat around watching films. At the moment I am watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Maggie has the whole boxset and she let me borrow it, I am nearly at the end of the first season, 6 more to go. Right I shall get back to watching it and then I shall see if I'm motivated to do any work.

Ahoy

Well I'm bored, as usual. I haven't done much today, I got up watched an episode of Mythbusters. Then Maggie rang me and asked if I could go feed Molly, as she and Andrew had forgotten this morning. SO I had to go into Shipley to get her house keys. While I was there I was surprised to see an old friend who I've known since first school called Liam. He has had brain tumors all of his life and during Grammar school (High school to some of you) he got really ill and wasn't expected to survive. I saw him once afterward and he was in a wheelchair and looked really bad. So it was nice to see him up and about.

I watched District 13 - Ultimatum, the sequel to District 13. It's a french film set in the not too distant future where a district (district 13 if you hadn't guessed :P) is rotten, it is over run with weapons, drugs and gangs. Basically the same plot for both films. The awesome thing about it is that most of the actors are free runners (parkourists?) so all of the fight and escape scenes are really cool. The only problem I had with it  was the version I have, has badly translated subtitles so it was a little hard to follow the converstation at certain points, but it was quite amusing. I also just read The Raven by Edgar Allan Poe, surprisingly I liked it. Maybe.....maybe....I'm changing!!!! *gasp*

On the way to uni the other day I had the idea for a geeky love program/poem type thing. I just typed it up and...Well I don't know if I like it or not. It's definitely geeky, but I just don't know if it's any good. It's also quite emo. XD

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I can't be changing that much, as I haven't been bothered to do much uni work today. I finished a comparison between Monopoly and The Six Million Dollar Man board game, which is terrible don't ever play it. Then I got bored and have been doing other stuff. I have so much to do as well. I know some of the stuff I'm stressing over doesn't have to be in till Christmas but I just want to get it done and feel all happy and care free. Right time to go find something to keep me occupied.

Ahoy again

There isn't really much to update on since I last posted. I've just finished reading a book called Back Spin by Harlan Coben, by dad handed me it yesterday and said that I would like it. He was right, I have barley put it down and just finished it. Such a good book got everything I like, humour, mystery and murder what more does a growing boy need?

I also watched a film earlier, called Nasty Old People. It was advertised on The Pirate Bay website and seeing as the creator was distributing it on Pirate Bay I thought it would be worth a look. It's in swedish, but that I didn't mine. It's about a neo-nazi girl who works as home help with some crazy old people. But she soon finds her world changing from the nazi to the old people. It's a really good film about how people can change for the better. I'd recommend it if you have the time or tolerance for subtitles.

I'm getting absolutelyshattered with these early mornings. It would help if I could sleep before 12, but then that would be 6 hours sleep.  Although I think as soon as I lie down tonight I am going to pass out and wake up feeling refreshed, well that's just me hoping anyway. I had a really good and annoying lecture today. It was some a guy who has been working in the film and games industry for about 15 years doing 3D visualization. He showed us some of his work and it was amazing. Then he said some words that made me cringe, 'You need to draw out your ideas'. I can't draw to save my life, if we he had given us the lecture in the first year I may have been more focused to learn but now it's a bit too late. As I was watching his show reel I knew that I would never get a job in games design, makes me feel like I've wasted my time and my money. Speaking of money, still no loan. It's getting annoying having to borrow money off my dad every day and then not have enough during the day to get anything to eat. My eating and sleeping pattern have been completely raped since I got back to uni, today I just kept feeling like I was about to throw up. But obviously I couldn't because I hadn't eaten in about 2 days. Then on the bus home I kept falling asleep and nearly fell off my seat. But that was more funny than annoying. Ok mini rant over, I'm going to find some drawing tutorials and see if they are not too daunting.

Ahoy

Wow I haven't posted in a week, I've just been so busy with my uni work I hadn't noticed. Nothing has happened though, I still haven't got my loan in. I have very very nearly finished my flash game, but there are some problems when I bring it home as I have a different version of flash player. It's soo annoying a frustrating, I came home yesterday all happy and smiley because all I had left to do was make the menu look pretty. I finish that and then I run it to see it in full glory and it didn't work. All because I use a newer version to uni, I wasn't very happy after that.

I haven't even touched the rest of my uni work in a while, although there isn't much I need to get so soon, only just got to type some thing up for my group project that outlines what I'm doing and then I have to make a plan for a website. Then I don't have to hand anything in till christmas, but I want to get it done quickly so I can hand it in and see if there is anything I need to do to change it.

I also need to pick a research topic, it can be anything in the world. It help if it links to my group project, but it doesn't have to. How can I choose what I can pick anything it's so annoying. Sometimes I wish someone else would just tell me what I need to do so I can go away and do it, but I know then I'd complain that I never got to choose. But I think everyone is like that, people are so strange.

Well I'm going to go ring the student finance people and see where my loan is and then I'm going to lie on the sofa and watch mythbusters all day, as it's my day off. YEY!!!! XD

Ahoy thar,

I still haven't got my loan in, so I haven't been up to much. I'm still cracking on with my uni work. I've completely re-done my character model, I've now down a centaur, the model is complete so I just have to figure out how to texture it and then rig it for animation. Which is the hardest part in my opinion. I've also almost finished all the coding for my flash game, I'm doing a top down shooter. Where you are shooting zombie students who are after your money. I'm hoping to have the code done by this weekend.
I never got around to finishing The Colour of Magic, I just couldn't read it anymore and I haven't picked up any other books as I've been concentrating on my uni work quite hard. Although I am starting to feel my concentration slipping as I only do little bits at a time and then sit about being bored.
I watched an awesome movie last night, How To Be A Serial Killer, it's really good and pretty self explanatory. I also went to the pub with Dean, Becca, Chris and Chantelle the other day. Dean bought me some more pints as I don't have any money.

Well that's all I have done, I'm going to try find something to do.

Ahoy thar

Well it's the end of my first week at uni and I am starting to get most of my work underway. This year I'm going to work a lot harder and get all of my work done as soon as I can, so I can always ask if I need to improve it for better marks. Hopefully this attitude will last throughout the year. For my big group project I have teamed up with my friend Martin and his friend Darren to create a survival horror game in Unreal Tournament 3. For my Character Design project we have to either create a realistic bust of ourselves or create a full body character. I have decided to create the full body character and have already written a short biography and almost completed the head. I haven't started the main work in my other projects, Games Prototyping and Web Applications.

I haven't been up to much apart from uni. I started playing Grim Fandango and got very near the end a few days ago but I haven't been back on to complete it yet, which is kind of annoying me. But I just haven't been driven to play it again. I finished reading Red Dwarf ages ago but I forgot to mention it in the last post. I am now reading The Colour of Magic but I don't know if I like it I am quite near the end and I just haven't found it amazingly good like most people rate the Discworld novels. I'll finish it and then see how I feel about it and if I can be bothered I'll start on The Light Fantastic.

I still haven't got my loan through yet which is really annoying me as I want to go buy new stuff so I have things to play with, read and whatnot. Just like the past 2 years at uni I haven't been sleeping properly, although last night I was feeling really sick and just couldn't get to sleep so I ended up only getting about 5 hours sleep. The early morning starts are going to kill me in the end, luckily I only have a couple. Anyway just thought I would update you all on my first week at uni, I need to get back to thinking about how to create the body for my character. Here is a quick render for you all.

Ahoy thar

I haven't posted in a few days. Nothing fun happened at uni, I met Kirtsy and talked to her for a bit and talked to some of my uni friends but that's about it. Then I've just been sat around at home reading and listening to music since. I still haven't heard from the Student Finance people about my loan or anything, but hopefully they will get back to me tomorrow and all will be good. I'll just have to borrow some more money off my dad to get to uni for the next week or so.

While at uni they told us what we would be doing this year, although we already knew. But the main thing I am looking forward to is the group project, where we can work with anyone we want to make a game. The game can be anything we want as well. We did something similar for a project last year, but this time it is going to be much better as we have a lot more time to work on it. I want to make a point and click adventure game, of course, I doubt anyone else will want to. I am attempting to write up a quick concept document of what I want my game like, but I am having a lot of trouble getting my thoughts and ideas out onto the document. I'm not even sure what I want the puzzles like, where even to start or whether it will even work as a game. I've looked at a few other design document templates as well as the Grim Fandango design document. But I am still struggling, I shall struggle onwards and hopefully I'll have something good to show to people tomorrow and try get them onto my team to help me make my game.

I'm hoping that everyone else does something similar, I know one of my friends already has. He wants to make a survival horror game and he sent me his design document to see what I thought of it and if I wanted to be on his team. But I am going to see what other people come up with or if any of them want to help make my idea. If not I can help him with his. We have been good friends since school, he was the one who told me to do Games Design, so we both signed up for the same course. But he ended up in a different group to me so I rarely see him. But we often talk about the work we are doing to see if we can help each other out.


But anyway I best get back to trying to figure out the plot for my game.

Argh I can't sleep again. I went to bed at about 12 and woke up at 3, I don't have to be up till 9. Urgh this is annoying. So I'm just going to sit here, put the radio on and read for a bit. The new computer should be here today, so I'll probably have to set that up when I finish uni. Finally I am back at uni, I won't have to sit around here all day with nothing to do. It'll be nice to see all of my friends again and see what they have been up to. The new computer also means that I'll have to move all of my games, my small booze collection, my weights, my juggling balls and all of the other random stuff I have on the desk next to me. RAWR I'm going to be soo tired when I finally get to uni, I got to be there at 2:30 that's just under 9 hours away and I have to be there till 5. Ah well back to reading and listening to music, if anything exciting happens at uni I'll update you all on that.

Ahoy thar,


As per usual of late I haven't been up to much. The most exciting thing I have done is go down to Saltaire Festival, it's just a little festival where they set up some fairground rides and have lots of different stalls selling food, clothes and lots of other randomly cool stuff. It was just my Dad, James and I, the first thing we did was go and look through some books that a church was selling and I managed to find a book I wanted. Better Than Life by Grant Naylor, it's the second book in the Red Dwarf series. It was only 25p I was well shocked, but I haven't got around to reading it yet as I am still reading Rumo, I'm just over half way now, so it shouldn't be too much longer. Then we wandered around some more my dad bought my a pint and we wandered around some more. I had to go on a ride with James as he wouldn't go on alone and I just don't get them, they are so boring. I don't see why people enjoy them so much, t'is weird. Then my dad bought me another pint and then we went home. That took up about 2/3 hours so it was a good day.

I haven't left the house since, I watched Hamlet 2 and District 9 last night. Hamlet 2 is where Steve Coogan plays a drama teacher who only writes bad musicals based on films. Then he writes the sequel to Hamlet where Hamlet has a time machine and meets jesus and some other stuff happens. It wasn't the best film in the world but it isn't the worst, but it closer to bad that good. District 9 is a really good film I won't ruin it for anyone as it's not been out long.

I've also been looking through all of my old uni work and found some of the stuff they made us do right at the beginning and it is so bad it's quite funny. ( Read more... )


Well I go back to uni on wednesday and I only just got an e-mail from the Student Finance people saying that they haven't received some of my forms. I tried to fill them out online, but I didn't have an ALIAS ID, whatever that is. Then I tried phoning them but surprise, surprise they were busy so I had to e-mail them asking for some more forms. So I'm probably going to get my loan through really late this year which is annoying because I'm going to have to borrow money from my Dad to get to uni and back everyday till then.

Ahoy,

Well it's been a week since I last updated so I guess it's time to write some more. I haven't done anything much, I'm still waiting to go back to uni. It was Dean's Birthday on Monday (14th), we went for a meal at the Noble Comb. It was his family (mum, dad and Natalie), Becca, Kirsty and myself. It was alright, Ryan was working that night so we asked if he could make Dean a special Birthday burger. So he put a candle in it, but the waiter took it out before we got it because the candle went out. We hung around waiting for Ryan and then we went back up to Deans house for some more drinks. We just sat around in his room drinking and watching stupid videos on the Internet, like the good old days. Me and Ryan didn't leave till about 5:30 in the morning and then we went to ASDA to buy some random stuff. We sat around for a bit talking and then wandered around Shipley. I didn't get home till about 8.
I've also been helping Martin with his uni work. I went over today to help him film some a promo/demo of his glove in action. Then we edited the video and slapped some sound on. It is surprising how much work went into the 40 second clip. You can watch it here if you want. I also designed him some business cards to hand out at his trade show. They are nice and simple with random stickman drawings on. We took them to a place to get printing and the guy said they look awesome and so much different from what they usually get. That made me smile, it's nice when other people like your work. Also helped him make a poster, he added what he needed onto it, I changed the fonts and drew loads of stickmen doing random things all over it. It looks so cool, just hope other people like it too. 

That is pretty much all I have been up to, we got some new computer chairs as well. They aren't that comfy but I'm starting to get used to them. I also started reading Rumo & His Miraculous Adventures again a few days back. I am almost half way though it and it is making me want to read The 13 1/2 Lives of Captain Bluebear again, but Nick still has it. I'll have to go and steal it back when I have finished this. What else? Oh, I borrowed Banjo Kazooie Nuts & Bolts from Martin and although it took me a while to get into it I am now really enjoying it. I shall be playing that a lot until I go back to uni. Also I watched a film called Frequently Asked Questions About Time Travel, I recommend that everyone should watch this. It has Chris O'Dowd from The IT Crowd in. It is such a brilliant movie I'm surprised I haven't heard of it before. I also watched Knowing and it was alright except for the ending which ruins the whole film and actually shouted at the TV. GGRRR was terrible I'm going to edit it and just cut the last few minutes off and it would be a good movie and I'd get paid millions for being awesome.

Well that's all I've done in the past week, hopefully I'll do something more exciting soon as i am getting really bored. I can't wait to go back to uni when I will have stuff to do.

Ahoy

Woo I got my Xbox back at last!! They couldn't fix it so they just re-placed it so now I have a spare faceplate, I think I might spray paint it or something if I can be bothered. Also at about 1:30 the other laptop arrived so I had to get up and answer the door, but at least I got to spend some time playing with another laptop and setting it all up and hopefully making it idiot proof. I should start charging my dad for the IT services I do I think I could make a fortune and then perhaps I could start my own business. But that'll never happen I'm too lazy.

So after setting up my Xbox and getting it connected to the Internet and able to stream media from my PC, I had a look at what new indie games were out. There was one that caught my eye called 'I Maed a Gaem with Zombies Init'  so I downloaded the demo. It as really fun, it's a top down zombie shooter survival game. Where you just have to survive from the hordes of zombies that keep appearing. The full game was only 80 points so I bought it and spent a good hour or so just playing that. I just need to get some other games for my Xbox as I have hardly any.

Well that is all I have done. Oh, I also made a list of stuff I want to buy when I get my student loan in and it's going to be quite expensive. The thing that surprised me most was the amount of books that I want to buy and there are probably some that I have forgotten about and not put on the list as well. Which reminds me I need to see if my student finance stuff is all sorted. So anyway toodle pip for now.

Meow

Well I haven't done anything since the treasure hunt. I finished Battle Royale yesterday and then I thought it would be a good idea to watch the movie. I watched the movie before I bought the book, but I never noticed how different they are. They are both still really good but I prefer the book to the film, as it seems more linear and explains alot of the characters in detail, whereas the movie just seems to jump through the characters not explaining them very much. My new book, Danny Wallace and the Center of the Universe came this morning. It's only a short book, so I've finished reading it already, but it is absolutely awesome. I am going to get the rest of his books and hope they are all this good. I know he did Yes Man, which then get turned into the film but also Join me is being turned into a film. So I can't wait to watch that, I think I'll read the book first and just hope it doesn't ruin the movie too much for me.

Dean rang me again and asked if i wanted to go to the pub quiz with him and Becca. Again he said he would buy me a drink as he knows I don't have any money. So I wandered off down to the pub for the quiz, it was alright it would have been better if there were more of us but it is still nice to see dean every now and then. I haven't seen Ryan in ages but apparently he has a new girlfriend now, so I'll have to tease him about that when I next see him.

Also i think my dad has won the lottery or something, he has been spending loads of money recently. We got a shower and the bathroom tiled, the window re-placed. He is paying for Maggie to get some new doors fitted at her house and he also bought that new computer the other day, but on top of that he bought 2 laptops. We don't even need 1 but he got 2, one for when he goes to meetings and one for Juliet. It is kind of ridiculous. He is also thinking of getting a new camera, he said he was looking at about £200 to £300. Maybe he has become a hitman and has started making lots of money, I just don't get where it has all come from. But it isn't anything drastic like getting a new house or anything that really effects me so I guess I'll be fine. Although when I do get around to getting a new computer we are not going to have anywhere to put it.

Well living in England we hardly see any 'scorching days', but when we do I don't think I'd want to do either. The beach is toe far away and no fun and I wouldn't want to sit in a dark room with a bunch of sweaty strangers. I would like to sit in a beer garden with a few friends having a good laugh and a pint.

Ahoy thar,

Well I did that shop re-fit and it was very tiring. But we finished at about 1 and then the manager said he would take us out for a few drinks, then about 3 hours later me and Martin got to his. It was a good night, mainly because I didn't have to spend any money. I then spent the rest of Friday at Martins house playing on the XBox and designing him some Business cards for his Masters Show in a few months. We decided to do a simple design and just have random drawings on them of little stickmen doing stuff. Part from that I haven't done anything apart from sit at home and getting more and more bored. I've nearly finished Battle Royale, I should have it finished today or tonight and then hopefully my new book will arrive tomorrow and give me something else to read. I need to find something to do, as I'm bored of Vampire the Masquerade.

Yesterday my dad asked me if I wanted to join in  on a treasure hunt that he is doing. He used to be an MP for the Labour Party and he still goes to all of their social stuff. So later on today I'll be able to get out of the house and do something fun. I think we will just be walking around Shipley and Saltaire looking for stuff. At least I have something to do today but I'll have to find something to do for the next 17 days till I go back to uni. I also haven't heard anything from the student finance people, I hope my loans and stuff have gone through otherwise I doubt I'll have enough money to go to uni for long.

Ahoy again,

Well I haven't been up to much, what with my lack of money. I've completed Broken Sword 4 now, so I'm now under the terrible grasp of boredom once again. Yesterday (Tuesday) my dad was talking about getting a new computer and said that I needed to move my games when he does. So I Got all of the ones on the list and I have decided to just give them away. The ones I don't give away will either go to a charity shop or in the bin. But at least now I have some shelf space for my books. Also yesterday I went to the pub quiz again, with Dean, Becca, Kirsty and some of her friends. It was pretty good, Dean said that he would buy me a drink just so I would co, but I'm not complaining.

Today I went to the UPS drop-off place to send my XBox back at last. Maggie gave me a lift and then we went to the place where she bought her puppy so the staff there could see how she is doing. Then I came home and installed Vampire The Masquerade: Redemption as I wanted to play something. While I was playing that my dad was on the other computer and he started pricing up a new computer on Dell. I told he to have a look at at least one more site and see if u can get it cheaper. So he did and he got a slightly better computer for slightly less. Now I am going to have to move all of my games somewhere, we need more shelf's in this house...Or maybe I need less stuff. Who knows. I had a odd amount of money in my account so I decided to see if I could get anything with it and I ended up buying a new book. Danny Wallace and the Centre of the Universe not heard of it before, but I really loved Are You Dave Gorman and I have flicked through Join Me in Waterstones. It was only 1p but then the postage was £2.75, not complaining thought it is still cheap and it will give me something to read when I have finished Battle Royale.

Tomorrow I have a little job to do, kind of excited. My brother's manager is having a re-fit at one of his shops and he needed some people to help, so Martin asked me to help. I will finally have a bit of money, the only problem is we start at 7pm and we think it might take a good 7 or 8 hours to finished so we're all going to be up late moving heavy stuff around. So tonight I'm going to stay up late, well later than usual, so I don't get too tired tomorrow night and then I can sleep on friday during the day. But I might just stay up all day so I don't mess up my sleeping pattern too much.

Ahoy thar,

Well I haven't been up to much. Sat around playing Broken Sword, I've completed the 3rd one now and I am about 2/3 of the way through the 4th one. When I started this one I was really bored of it, but I carried on and I'm enjoying it more now. But I guess that's just because I have done nothing but play Broken Sword for the past few weeks. Martin came over the other day to give me my Xbox back, as I have to send it off to get repaired. That's pretty much all I have done.

I had a really weird dream last night, (It could have been this morning, I don't know I was asleep) I don't remember any of my dreams but this one made me wake up with a big smile on my face and made me feel really happy. I was wandering around in a park and I could hear drums, so I went through some trees and round a corner and I saw an open sapce where there was a big drum circle. There was a crowd watching and I joined them and watched. When the drummers stopped we all applauded. Then one of the drummers asked me what I did with my hair to get it into an afro. Then most of the drummers and crowd had left, but a couple had stayed behind to talk to me. One was the girl who asked me about my hair and some of her friends, I think. Then we walked around the park talking for a bit and when they have to leave one of the girls kisses me.
Then I woke up with a smile on my face, I don't even remember what the people looked like. But it seemed to cheer me up, the human mind is a strange place.

Depends on the situation. Sometimes I tend to drink more and then it seems fine, but if there aren't any drinks I tend to be quiet and pretty introvert. I also fiddle with stuff alot, I used to wear a braclet and I ended up breaking that as I kept fiddling with the clasp.

Ahoy thar

Ok, time to try and remember what I've been up to. I went to Deans house again on Sunday, well I went to his old Saltaire house first as he was cleaning it out with his, Mum, Becca and someone else and they needed help moving the fridge so I went down because I was bored. Then we went back to Dean's house via ASDA to pick up some alcohol. So we sat for a bit and had a few drinks then we went to get some cash out, it was raining really heavily and for some reason I was only wearing shorts and a t-shirt. But I didn't really mind, after we got some cash out we passed a pub so we went in for a drink and then headed back to Dean's house. At about 9:30 he went to bed, I stayed chatting with Becca till about 1 and then got a taxi home.

Then on Monday I had to stay in because someone was coming to tile the bathroom and fit a shower. Tuesday I went to the pub for the pub quiz with Ryan, Martin and Nick. While I was there I saw an friend from school who I haven't talked to in ages, so we started chatting and then at about 12 we went back to his. He live literally next to the pub, which is pretty awesome. I didn't do anything yesterday and I'm probably not going to do anything today either.

I've also been on a Broken Sword binge, I've completed 1, 2 and the fan made one 2.5, which is only in german at the moment but it has english subtitles so I was happy. I've started on 3 but I'm not that far, maybe a quarter probably less. Also I'm re-reading Battle Royale I'm not that far into it either but it is a good book. it seems to be taking me a while to read, so it will keep me busy.