Ahoy thar,

As usual it's been a while since I last posted. Went to my friends birthday up in Middlesbrough, that was pretty good. Apart form that I haven't done much, I finished my first semester at uni, although I am still waiting for some of my results. I've been playing Age of Empires a lot recently as well.

I have started a new sleeping schedule, I decided to try poly-phasic sleeping. I'm on an Everyman schedule, I don't know if you've heard about it. But instead of just getting one big chunk 8 hours of sleep I am going to be having 2 hours of sleep at night and 3 20 minute naps throughout the day.

Core sleep: 12:30 - 02:30
Nap 1: 08:00 - 08:20
Nap 2: 14:00 - 14:20
Nap 3: 20:00 - 20:20

I started that last night and it was going well got to like 2 o'clock this afternoon. I went for my nap I was feeling really sleepy as I didn't sleep at all through any of my other naps. But then instead of only having 20 minutes I had 4 hours. Whoops. I won't be posting about it up here as it would take up too much room for you all. So I am posting on this site. So check it out to see how I'm doing.

Soon I'm going to have soo much free time, I can't wait. Although I usually sit around doing nothing, now I will get bored and then crack on with some work or something else. But at the moment I'm still re-adjusting so I shouldn't get ahead of myself, as I could fall of the wagon completely.

There isn't much else I can say here. It's kind of a short post.

Woo, finished reading Join Me not so long ago. My last act was kind of strange, I was on the bus to uni and I wasn't in such a good mood as I had to get up early for a lecture. When a student gets on the bus with £10 expecting change from the £1 fare, then she wouldn't get off the bus and was just stood argueing with the driver. After about 10 mins of this I got fed up walked over and gave her the fare and sat back down.

Is that an act of kindess? It wsa more of an act of annoyance but oh well. =P

Ahoy again

I realise it's been ages since I last psoted, but I have bee on here reading everyones posts.
Well I haven't been up to much as usual, I had my hand in dates for my uni work on friday so I have basically been working my arse off getting all my work finished.
I have ordered some tickets for Dave Gorman! He's coming here for a stand up comedy gig and I bought my brother a ticket for his birthday and got a few of my mates to join us. So it should be an awesome night...although it's not for a while yet (16th of feb).

I have been reading alot recently as well, I finished the new H2G2, Join me and America Unchained. I'm about half way through Friends Like These. H2G2 is good, but it seemed to be a bit too like fan-fiction for me. Just the way it would do references to the other books way too often and the guide notes seemed like they were put in because he wanted to fill up some pages. But all in all a good book, I hope that there is another one. I still have a big pile of books to read, I've got Yes Man and three Red Dwarf books, so at least I'll be entertained for a while. I have also ordered Googlewhack Adventure and A Wild Ride Through the Night, but they have been deleiver yet.

I was bored the other day and decided to look through all of my sent e-mails and I found one that I sent to my university newspaper. It was basically the Fresh Prince theme tune but it was all..eeerrr...smart-i-fied and formal, twas pretty funny. Then a day or 2 later I went drinking with Dean, he had just broken up with Becca, and somehow we got on the topic of the Queen and I said I would like to be a court jester. So the next day I sent her a application letter, I'll post it up here at the end.

I went out last night with Martin, Nick, Kev and Elle and while I was getting a drink some random guy sits down at our table and starts talking to them. So when I get back I discover that he is a games designer working for codemasters. So we had a good natter I got his MSN address so we can talk a bit more and maybe go for a drink later. It is just awesome, I havne't seen any of his work yet but hopefully he'll be able to help me with mine. Random coincidences are awesome.

Oh and yesterday my Gran died, so I get to go to another funeral. My wedding to funeral ratio is now 6:0, although I have been invited to 3 weddings so soon it'll be 6:3...hopefully.

i haven't really felt like posting for ages because I don't really know if this is me...it feel kind of wierd typing out what I've done and my thoughts and feeling. The reason I started blogging was because I wanted to change, so I guess I should keep it up. But lately it just hasn't felt right. Hopefully it was a phase and it'll pass.

Well that is all I have done, here is my letter to the queen. Enjoy
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Ahoy,
Well it's the day of boxing day...well christmas for me seeing as e do everything on christmas day. I have just got home from Becca's house, where I went to see Dean, her and some friends. Dean and her have been having a bit of a rough patch recently. I was at the pub with my brother and some friends and he text me asking me what I was doing. He then asked if I would go over because the people there were mainly her friends. Then he said it was fine with becca and she said i could stay over and whatnot. So I decided i'd go see how things were between them. Basically I don't think he even asked Becca if i could go over, she seem really angry with me, and with Dean. I just felt really awkward being there, so I went to try ask Dean what was going on. Long story short, she thinks we have been talking about her, which we have but I only wanted to see what was going on between them and now I think she doesn't like me.

I just realised...I'll give you all a warning now, because this could just be a bit hate ramble about nothing at all and my feelings about nothing in particular.

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Ok, I shall carry on, if you even read that bit.

As I said above my family don't usually do anything on christmas day, as my sisters are off with their boyfriends. On christmas-eve-eve I went drinking with Martin, as he came over a few days before because Jane (his girlfriend) went home to Manchester to see her family. then on chirstmas-eve we went drinking again. Christmas day me, my dad, Martin exchanged 1 present each and then boxing day the family all came round, we exchange our presents. We had a few drinks, chatted and watched TV. The highlight of the evening was near the end when Chaz and Adam announced that they were engaged. I was the only person to say congrats at first (That felt really awkward). But soon everyone followed.
Then me and Martin went to the pub for some more drinks and that's where I started this post, so I don't want to repeat myself.

TLDR; Drinking everyday till boxing day, did our christmas stuff, sister said she was engaged. Went drinking, went to see friend now all confused.

I'm partly confused because I have had a problem expressing my feelings all of my life, I still struggle with them and I get really confused when a really strong one appears. But also because recently (the past few months), I have just thought about leaving, buying a small cabin somewhere and living there, without telling anyone where I have gone. But at the moment it just isn't feasible, so I am going to wait for a while and think about it, maybe something will come along and change my mind....hopefully.

Ahoy

Well it's been ages since I last posted, so I thought I'd up date you all on what I've been up to.
Yesterday I went to see Avatar! It is such an awesome film, we went to the midnight showing at the IMAX, so it was in 3D. But I'm still not sure if 3D is any better than 2D, it made my eyes hurt as I wanted to look at things which were out of focus. It's still an awesome film, but I can't recommend that people go to see the 3D version.

Right now i'm supposed to be on a pub crawl with some of my friends from school, I got told we were all meeting in a pub at 4. So I get there just after 4, no one was there. So I waited till 5, still no one had turned up, so I rang one of my friends and it turns out they are off to his house first and then going on a pub crawl. So instead of sitting in the pub by myself I came into uni, so I can go on the Internet and stuff. So now I'm stuck in Leeds by myself, just waiting for them to tell me where to meet them. I'm not a happy bunny. I haven't talked to this group of friends in ages either, as they just don't invite me out anymore, so I thought it would be nice to see them all before Chirstmas. But I'm just tempted to go home now. I don't know if it will be worth waiting for them or not. RAWRAWRAWRAWRWWARAWRARAWRAWSRFASRFAS!!!!!!!

Ok that's the angry ramble out of the way. I've finished uni for Chirstmas yesterday! I managed to get my research report finished and handed it, although I don't think it was good enough, but it's too late now. I just hope it's alright. I think that's all I have been up to, recently. I'm looking forward to christmas, but I still have lots of uni work to get done by the time I go back. So I'll have to work on it.

Well goodbye for now, hopefully it won't be too long before I post again.

Ahoy

Well I got the man flu :(
For the past 2 days I've just been sat on the sofa with the fire on full, feeling sorry for myself and watching rubbish day-time TV. Today will be no different, I'm feeling even worse today. I woke myself up by sneezing all over my duvet. It wasn't a pretty sight. I should be doing uni work but I'm just not feeling up to it. Although I'm going into uni tomorrow, I need to get more work done. Unless I feel even worse than I do today, but I don't think that's likely.

But enough about me feeling ill. I bought Monkey Island 1 & 2 the other day and it finally arrived! That was a christmas gift to myself, I might wrap it up for a bit of fun. XD
I've lost the charger for my MP3 player, so I haven't got music for my bus journeys any more :( But Dean gave me one of his old phones, a Nokia N-Gage QD. So i've been playing around with that for a few days, I put a Gameboy emulator on it and have just been playing pokemon blue, I want to get a real Gameboy now. I think Kirsty has my old one, I may have to go and steal it off her.

One good thing about being awake and at home during the day is that I'm all alone, James is at school, my Dad is at work and Juliet is in bed (she works night shifts). So I can just roam about the house doing what I want. Yesterday I watched Law Abiding Citizen, was a brilliant film until the end. I won't ruin it for anyone, but I'd recommend it to you. I'm going to watch Zombieland in a bit, I've nothing but good things about it so I'm looking forward to it.

Right I'm going to stop rambling about nothing and watch the rest of MASH.

Ahoy again

It's been a while since I last posted. I went out last night to the pub and I went to Dean's house the night before. But apart from that I haven't been up to much.

I never did apply for that volunteering job, it just slipped my mind. Ah well I'm sure there will be others. I've also been doing some uni work, I'm working on my research paper. It's on path finding in games, So I had to sit around for several hours and watch bots play Unreal Tournament. It wasn't very bored as you can imagine. I also have to explain how the algorithms work, but I haven't got the slightest, so I am just making it up as I go along. Hopefully I won't do a terrible job at it. I got a bit annoyed at uni the other day, I went in early to ask if my tutors could help me with a problem I was having. They couldn't, so I sat at the computer for about 4 hours trying to figure out what was wrong, but to no avail. So I had to go back to an earlier piece of work and finish it. It was a very frustrating day, but hopefully it will look awesome when I'm done. All of the christmas presents have arrived, I now have 5 big brown envelopes and a bit box here. Woo It's nearly christmas, I can't wait, although I aren't doing anything on the day, as my siblings are with their better halves. Except for Martin he should be here for christmas day, so we get to have some fun I suppose.

I also finished reading The Alchemaster's Apprentice a few days ago, it was alright, still not as good as Bluebear but the ending was really good. So now I'm reading Join Me and I have to say so far it is one of the funniest books I've read. Danny Wallace is a genius.

I haven't been practicing my drawing for a while, I did some the other day and was kind of pleased with the results. But then I decided I would do better if I got a proper set of drawing pencils, instead of just using one. i bought them the other day but I haven't had chance to use them yet. So that's something else I can look forward to. Oh, I just did a drawing it's not brilliant but it's kind of different from my other stuff. I did tell Miss.Xanderlion that I'd do a drawing for her, so I suppose this one if for her. XD Enjoy!

Ahoy,

Well I finally got around to setting up the new computer and it didn't work! I opened it up to put a graphics card in and it just didn't work, so I took out the card and tried again, it still didn't work. About 2 hours of trying everything I took out the RAM, switched them around and it worked. No idea why that worked but it did. It made me very happy, I'm still smiling about it. I'm just installing Windows on it at the moment, then I'm going to put the graphics card and another hard drive in and it will be set to go.

I haven't been to uni again today as I went to Kirsty's and Natalie's house. Natalie just got a new job so we were celebrating by having a few drinks. then I left at about 3 in the morning. I'm still feeling the effects but it doesn't help that i haven't had anything to eat today. I'm going out in a couple of hours to Nick's house as he is having a party for some random reason. I just hope that windows has finished installing otherwise I'll have to leave the computers strewn across the floor. I don't think my Dad would be too happy about it, but it's not a major problem.

Then it's the weekend and I get to sit around even more. Wooo! Although I am going to get some uni work done as I haven't done any in a while and I still have lots to get done. But strangely enough I'm still ahead of everyone else on my course. Also I'm thinking of apply to some volunteering job in Leeds. Not 100% sure of what I would be doing but they are looking for geeks to help with computer stuff. So it could just be ideal for me and it would help expand my CV.

Ahoy again

The new computer is here! It came yesterday while I was out. I went out with Dean for a few drinks and a bit of banter, when he realised that he isn't at work today. So it quickly ended up with us being out till 3 in the morning. I paid for everything last night as I owed him many drinks, hopefully my debt has been re-paid. We had an awesome night just chatting about random things, talking to random people. As usual we decided to roll a dice to decide which pubs/bars we would go to. So we ended up going to 8 or 9, we ended the night in FAB Cafe. I'm starting to get bored with it now so I need to find a new regular bar to visit. at about 1 we went for some food at McDonalds and started talking to some more random people. But some guy got a bit aggravated when we started taking the piss out of his course. So he started a fight with dean, I stepped in and just said that he needed to calm down and I'd go get him and his mates a pint. That shut him up pretty quickly, I went to get some money out and next to the cash machine was a girl sat on the floor with no shoes on, she had clearly been taking some kind of drugs. So me and the guy who started the fight started talking to her to find out where her friends were, but she didn't know. So we took her into McDonalds to let her go to the toilet and then the staff there said that they would call an ambulance and look after her. So we went to get the pint I offered them. But the bouncers wouldn't let one of them in has he was wearing trainers, so we all said our goodbyes and me and Dean went in for more drinks. Twas a good/random night.

Earlier that day I went shopping for some new clothes with Maggie. I gave her £100 and told her to buy me somethings that looked nice. So now I have some lovely new clothes. I haven't set up the new computer yet as I'm feeling a little hungover, but I'll do it tomorrow when I get back from uni. Also I bought some new books by Danny Wallace, Random Acts of Kindness and Join Me. I'm still reading The Alchemaster's Apprentice so I haven't looked at them yet.

I have spent way too much money, I spent almost £150 on the night out with Dean and £100 shopping. All in one day. I need to slow down a bit otherwise I won''t have anything left. Although I need to buy Christmas Presents yet. Well that's pretty much all I have done over the past few days. I been to uni, sat around, played Assassins Creed, read and well that's it really.

Ahoy


Well I got back from leeds a few hours ago. I was in uni 9 till 11 and then I rang Martin and asked if he wanted to come shopping with me. I didn't buy as much as I thought I would. I bought a bottle of Sailor Jerry's (The nicest rum around) some Thornton's chocolate for Kirsty's birthday, Zelda on the DS for James. I also bought The Alchemaster's Apprentice by Walter Moers, I've been wanting this book for ages and it was finally in Waterstones, it was the last copy as well, so happy. Martin only bought Assassins Creed 2, then Nick came into town to join us and he also went and bought Assassins Creed 2. After we went back to Martin's to play on the Xbox for a bit. We looked at AC2 and it has Danny Wallace in! The character looks like him but doesn't really sound like him, I saw him and said "It looks like Danny Wallace!!!" but Nick and Martin didn't believe me so Nick looked it up on IMDB and I got to laugh at them. Speaking of Danny Wallace they don't have any of his books in the Waterstones in Leeds or any of Dave Gorman's or if they do I didn't see them.

Got home for about 9 and bought a new computer for £267. That's instead of paying my dad back for the money I have borrowed off him. His old computer broke down the other day and it is really old so we decided it would be best to replace it. SO I get to play with a new computer soon. I get to gut the old one and slap the old HDD and a new graphics card into the new one. Computer geekery and gadgets get me excited.

Tomorrow I'm going shopping again with Nick and Martin, I need some new clothes and shoes and since I don't have any fashion sense I thought they would help me buy clothes that look nice. Instead of my usual black t-shirts or random multi-coloured ugly looking clothes that I don't wear.

I've had my loan less that 24 hours and I've spent about £350. I don't know how much I'm going to spend tomorrow either. I just hope I don't go overboard with the spending and end up really poor again quickly. I still have lots of stuff to buy from my To Buy list. But I'm going to see how much of that I can get other people to get me for Christmas. I don't think I'll be going out into town with Kirsty tomorrow either, I don't enjoy going to clubs as they are just too loud and expensive and I won't really know anyone else there, I'm sure she won't mind.

My loan! It's finally here, just in time for Kirsty's and Jame's birthday on saturday. So I get to go shopping after uni today, it's going to be so much fun. I'm going to buy loads of books and game and well, everything.Then tomorrow I'm off out with Kirsty to celebrate her birthday. Right I better set off to uni, woo excited XD

It's Cold.

This is a tough one. There are so many awesome super powers. Out of the ones I can think of:
Astral Projection
Interface with machine/computers
Photographic memory (not a real super power, but anyone that has it has to be super human)
Mind reading

Out of thse I would probably choose Iterface with machines/computers, I keep a phone with internet on me and have knowledge of everything!!

A while ago me and my friends were trying to think of original super powers, I can't remember them all but the ones that stuck in my mind were. To give people an orgasm at will and to make mime actions real. They would also be awesome.

Ahoy again

I'm still waiting for my student loan to arrive, but I'm just waiting for a letter from them and then I have to sign it and send it back. Usually it wouldn't take that long but there's a postal strike on at the moment, so it might take forever.
I haven't been up to much since I last posted. Watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer, I'm just starting season 5. I finished reading The Dice Man and read a new book my dad bought me, One Hit Wonderland by Tony Hawks. Another brilliant book by him, I own his first one Round Ireland with a Fridge I just need to get the second one now, Playing the Moldovans at Tennis and I'll have the full set!! MUHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!11one
I'm still practicing my drawing following the tutorials on Drawspace.
Apart from all that I've been doing my uni work, for one of my modules I had to make a website so I decided to make myself a new portfolio site. I probably won't ever use it but it does look pretty cool, check it out and tell me what you think. I watched a film called I Sell The Dead the other day as well, it's really weird but still pretty good. Oh I also watched Up, which is an awesome film. I'm also getting 9, Moon, Pandorum, The Age of Stupid, Bane and Last of the Living. I'm getting these through totally legal means....totally.....*whistles*

I haven't done anything today, except watch some Buffy this morning and then I did some work on my website, afterward I just sat watching Eskimo Bob. Yey for productiveness.

This post is all link filled.
Well I thought I'd just update here so you all would know I'm still alive.

It's kind of strange how I've been thinking about this for a while now and then it suddenly comes up as the Writer's Block.
I'm not sure what I want to change to be honest. I do know that I want to be more out-going, not one of the easiest accomplishments to achieve. I basically want to change everything about my life at the moment, I want to move out, get a job, actually try at something for a change instead of just drifting through with minimal effort. I want to be less lazy I want to try new things. I want to be the person I see in my inner-eye and in my dreams.
I don't even know if I even have the will power to change that much, or at all. But I'm going to try.

Ahoy,

Well I'm back again. As usual I haven't been up to anything exciting, uni, watching buffy, doing uni work and procrastinating. So the usual. As you may have noticed I've made a couple of new userpics for myself, I was getting bored with the old one. My main one, the JB one, is kind of like my new signature, I'm just trying it out for a while to see how I like it.

A while ago, I decided that I was going to learn ho to draw. Well... How to draw better than I currently do, which isn't very well at all. At first I would just sit in front of the TV and try to draw what I saw. It didn't go too well, so I started drawing random objects that were around me, also not too good. Finally I decided that I would follow some tutorials, I found some really good ones online and have been following them, I've just done my third one. But I realise that it is going to be a while before I see a difference in my drawing abilities. I'm tempted to make another LJ account with would just focus on my drawings/doodles, that way I would hopefully get some nice feedback from people and they might help me improve my skills. But I'm not sure if it will be a worthwhile venture, so for now I'll just go it alone, so to speak.

I'm re-reading The Dice Man, I've only got about 10 more chapters till I finish it. But once again it is tempting me to actually start using a dice to make my decisions, but I probably wouldn't go to such extremes as in the book. It has also made me start thinking about how I feel about my life at the moment and wanting me to change into the person I see myself being. I don't really know where to start changing, as I'm actually a really shy guy, I'm actually kind of embarrassed that I'm practicing to draw. It's not just that I want to change a lot in my life, I have been making some changes kind of recently, like I started this blog, I started reading, watching different films. But I feel that it isn't enough, I still feel really lonely at times, I haven't talked to any of my friends, like Dean or Ryan for a few weeks now.

But enough about all that, I'm going to go back to reading or drawing and then I'm going to go watch some more buffy.

P.S. Still waiting for my student loan to come through, I got an invoice from uni yesterday telling me to pay £2000 for my tuition fees. GGRRR

Ahoy thar

Well it's been a while since I last posted. I have just been up to uni work mostly, well avoiding doing any that is. I've done little bits but thats about it. I need to start focusing again. On Sunday I did some volunteering for a Oxfam music festival called Oxjam, Jane asked me to do it on the Friday. It seemed like a good idea so I said I would, which made mop join me after he had finished work. It was alright, we stayed in a pub all day listening to some pretty good bands. It was pretty boring for most of it, but it was better than sitting around the house being bored all day.

Yesterday I went to Eurogamer, it was pretty much what I expected loads of people standing around playing games. I didn't really play games any more so I wasn't really interested in the games. But there was supposed to be a careers fair the games industry there as well. But It was pitiful, most of the booths there were from universities. It really annoying as that was the main reason I wanted to go, I'm in my final year at uni and I don't think I'm going to get into making games unless I get some experience and get a better portfolio of work sorted out. For some reason I was pretty moody most of the day as well, Nick started pissing me off right at the beginning of the day. Then my mood just lasted all day, i got even more aggravated when I got home. James has his friend Martin over again so I'm not too happy about that, then Juliet started shouting again and I just snapped and told her to shut up. It was bound to happen at one time or another, I get really pissed off with all the shouting she does.

It was also my dads birthday Saturday. we all came up here and my dad cooked a lovely curry for us all. That was nice, Maggie, Charlotte, Martin, Dad and myself just sat around having a laugh as usual. For some reason none of their other half's came over, bit weird but not a massive problem. Kirsty came up at about 9:30 when she finished work.

Apart from all that I haven't done much, sat around watching films. At the moment I am watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Maggie has the whole boxset and she let me borrow it, I am nearly at the end of the first season, 6 more to go. Right I shall get back to watching it and then I shall see if I'm motivated to do any work.

Ahoy

Well I'm bored, as usual. I haven't done much today, I got up watched an episode of Mythbusters. Then Maggie rang me and asked if I could go feed Molly, as she and Andrew had forgotten this morning. SO I had to go into Shipley to get her house keys. While I was there I was surprised to see an old friend who I've known since first school called Liam. He has had brain tumors all of his life and during Grammar school (High school to some of you) he got really ill and wasn't expected to survive. I saw him once afterward and he was in a wheelchair and looked really bad. So it was nice to see him up and about.

I watched District 13 - Ultimatum, the sequel to District 13. It's a french film set in the not too distant future where a district (district 13 if you hadn't guessed :P) is rotten, it is over run with weapons, drugs and gangs. Basically the same plot for both films. The awesome thing about it is that most of the actors are free runners (parkourists?) so all of the fight and escape scenes are really cool. The only problem I had with it  was the version I have, has badly translated subtitles so it was a little hard to follow the converstation at certain points, but it was quite amusing. I also just read The Raven by Edgar Allan Poe, surprisingly I liked it. Maybe.....maybe....I'm changing!!!! *gasp*

On the way to uni the other day I had the idea for a geeky love program/poem type thing. I just typed it up and...Well I don't know if I like it or not. It's definitely geeky, but I just don't know if it's any good. It's also quite emo. XD

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I can't be changing that much, as I haven't been bothered to do much uni work today. I finished a comparison between Monopoly and The Six Million Dollar Man board game, which is terrible don't ever play it. Then I got bored and have been doing other stuff. I have so much to do as well. I know some of the stuff I'm stressing over doesn't have to be in till Christmas but I just want to get it done and feel all happy and care free. Right time to go find something to keep me occupied.

Ahoy again

There isn't really much to update on since I last posted. I've just finished reading a book called Back Spin by Harlan Coben, by dad handed me it yesterday and said that I would like it. He was right, I have barley put it down and just finished it. Such a good book got everything I like, humour, mystery and murder what more does a growing boy need?

I also watched a film earlier, called Nasty Old People. It was advertised on The Pirate Bay website and seeing as the creator was distributing it on Pirate Bay I thought it would be worth a look. It's in swedish, but that I didn't mine. It's about a neo-nazi girl who works as home help with some crazy old people. But she soon finds her world changing from the nazi to the old people. It's a really good film about how people can change for the better. I'd recommend it if you have the time or tolerance for subtitles.

I'm getting absolutelyshattered with these early mornings. It would help if I could sleep before 12, but then that would be 6 hours sleep.  Although I think as soon as I lie down tonight I am going to pass out and wake up feeling refreshed, well that's just me hoping anyway. I had a really good and annoying lecture today. It was some a guy who has been working in the film and games industry for about 15 years doing 3D visualization. He showed us some of his work and it was amazing. Then he said some words that made me cringe, 'You need to draw out your ideas'. I can't draw to save my life, if we he had given us the lecture in the first year I may have been more focused to learn but now it's a bit too late. As I was watching his show reel I knew that I would never get a job in games design, makes me feel like I've wasted my time and my money. Speaking of money, still no loan. It's getting annoying having to borrow money off my dad every day and then not have enough during the day to get anything to eat. My eating and sleeping pattern have been completely raped since I got back to uni, today I just kept feeling like I was about to throw up. But obviously I couldn't because I hadn't eaten in about 2 days. Then on the bus home I kept falling asleep and nearly fell off my seat. But that was more funny than annoying. Ok mini rant over, I'm going to find some drawing tutorials and see if they are not too daunting.

Ahoy

Wow I haven't posted in a week, I've just been so busy with my uni work I hadn't noticed. Nothing has happened though, I still haven't got my loan in. I have very very nearly finished my flash game, but there are some problems when I bring it home as I have a different version of flash player. It's soo annoying a frustrating, I came home yesterday all happy and smiley because all I had left to do was make the menu look pretty. I finish that and then I run it to see it in full glory and it didn't work. All because I use a newer version to uni, I wasn't very happy after that.

I haven't even touched the rest of my uni work in a while, although there isn't much I need to get so soon, only just got to type some thing up for my group project that outlines what I'm doing and then I have to make a plan for a website. Then I don't have to hand anything in till christmas, but I want to get it done quickly so I can hand it in and see if there is anything I need to do to change it.

I also need to pick a research topic, it can be anything in the world. It help if it links to my group project, but it doesn't have to. How can I choose what I can pick anything it's so annoying. Sometimes I wish someone else would just tell me what I need to do so I can go away and do it, but I know then I'd complain that I never got to choose. But I think everyone is like that, people are so strange.

Well I'm going to go ring the student finance people and see where my loan is and then I'm going to lie on the sofa and watch mythbusters all day, as it's my day off. YEY!!!! XD